Sometimes the only sound I can make is that of tears flowing out of the edges of my eyes. I don’t have a song, I don’t have strength to weep, and I certainly don’t have words to share. When my soul cannot spare the energy of trying to say what I am supposed to; I am at a loss for words. When my heart is overwhelmed in the equal balance of love and pain; I am left in stillness. I am paralyzed to silence and the voice I once used to express how much I love God no longer functions. You may look at me and think I am unresponsive. Even my expression won’t give clue as to what is happening on the inside, but you make assumptions. You assume that there is nothing going on because I don’t shout and jump about. Instead of enjoying the same presence stirring on the inside of me you focus in on how loud I shout and how deep my holler is. I am not angry about it. I am sad for you. While my soul is dancing with The Father in the absence of my physical limitations your spirit is distracted by the flesh you have engaged in order to judge me.
What I am trying to say is that the deeper my worship is and the brighter my praise gets the less you will get from my flesh. For I have found a place that in the absence of my body where I can fully connect with my Heavenly Father. Follow me in the Selah of worship, let me be not a guide, but an example that if you just remove human expectations you can enjoy a secret place that God has shared with everyone. You see, I was taught to quick step, dance, shout, jump, sing, yell, scream, and so many things that give joyful noise to human ears. However, the best place is in the quiet and the stillness. There, my soul shares an exchange with God that my body cannot interpret, and my mind dare not give utterance to.
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